I am a pretty logical and rational woman. Having grown up with older brothers and sisters who didn’t give a damn about my moods and refused to talk to me when I was acting illogically definitely helped me growing up that way. And being on the pill since I was 14 is definitely a helping factor too, as I discovered recently.
For various reasons, I had to stop taking the pill for 6 months. I swear, hell broke loose. I experienced the worst mood swings ever, always feeling down and not loved and emotional and cranky the day before and the first day of my period, I had the worst acne ever ( even worse than in my teenage years before the pill!), I once cried in a fitting room because one particular jeans did not fit me… I really hated myself these days. All the bloating, the neediness, the affection craving, the irrationality of my actions and decisions…it was not me. I finally understood the women of my entourage who complain about this kind of stuff, and I really wonder how they manage.
Because after one particularly bad cycle, when I was a real emotional wreck, I decided it was time to go back on the pill. The only thing I will miss, though, is the weight loss. When I was off the pill, I lost 3 kgs without even trying, I was just never hungry. Oh and one thing that I will also miss, but only when I have a boyfriend or lover, is the increased libido.
So now, I know better than to trust doctors who tell me that the pill has no side effects: it does make me a bit fatter, it does decrease a bit my libido, but I’m willing to overlook these minor flaws to get my sanity back. Believe me, it’s worth it